11o9o8....

the moment u said "thisz dnt feel rite"

i knew it wasz ova between u n i.

i regret wuht i did in the past

cause i lost u at last. u still mean

everythin 2 meh n thtsz no lie,

all i eva wanted wasz 4 u 2 b

by mah side. i still tlk 2 u n

i wish u n meh wasz still

2gehtha buht thtsz

only a dream tht i hope 2 accomplish

4eva. i knoe theresz some1 else

buht i wish i could keep

u 2 mahself. u dnt even

knoe how much the pain hurtsz.

sometimesz i feel lyk thisz isz jus a

curse. i wish how thingsz use 2 b so plz

baby dnt make meh leave. i write thisz

song 2 share wit u bout mah feelinsz

tht fall 4 u...

mah feelin 4 u

okiesz where 2 start... well obviously ima b sad bout thisz whole thing. i mean i didnt think u wasz gunna geht a gurl so fast.. i mean idk how long yall been goin out, idk if it wasz wen u n meh wasz 2gehtha or wen we broke up, idk tht shitt. buht i aint gunna tell u not 2 b wit her or anythin lyk tht. i aint tht type of person. so i aint gunna say tht a bad thing 2 do or i aint even gunna think bout sayin tht shitt 2 u cuz then thtsz fucked up. buht of couresz im sad bout it.. i aint gunna lie.. she seem lyk a great gurl. im pretty sure u gunna b happier wit her anywaysz.. i put u through a lot of shitt n i neva ment 4 tht 2 happen..... so im pretty sure u gunna b happy wit her.. i hope tht thingsz go great between yall buht if they dnt [[i hope they do though]] mayb.. we can give usz a 2nd chance.. or i mean 3rd chance.. buht 4 rite now i think ima stop tryin 2 geht u bahk... of couresz i aint want 2 buht rite now i think u gunna b a helluh happier wit her.. n mayb itsz the best 4 u anyway.. i mite not b happy buht if i c u happy then imma b happy.. jus rememba tht u ALWAYSZ gunna have a spot in mah heart, b mah #1, mah speical person, mah 1st luv, mah friend, fuck it even mah best friend. u gunna b all of tht 2 meh even if we aint 2gehtha no moe.. n all tht shit i jus said ima promise u isz gunna b all tht 2 meh.. i wish i could promise tht u aint gunna lose meh buht i cnt promise somethin tht i dnt think i can complete 100% i mean of couresz i want 2 make it a promise buht idk wuht gunna happen between u n her or between meh n u or even the future. i dnt knoe tht shitt. if i did i would promise u tht. buht i cnt rite now.... n im sry tht i cnt promise u tht. buht imma tell u rite now tht u aint gunna lose meh [[no promise]] buht 4 now u still got meh..... even as jus a friend [[which i wish we wasz moe then tht]].. buht i can promise u somethin else... im ALWAYSZ gunna b here 4 u. even if we aint 2gehtha no moe imma b here 4 u. even if we b fightin or shitt lyk tht ima b here 4 u. n i promise u tht. if u eva need some1 2 tlk 2 or hang wit or jus 2 b with ima b here 4 u..... dnt think im sayin gudbye or any shit lyk tht im jus sayin how i b feelin. i still got a lot of luv 4 u, a lot of respect 4 u, n i still care bout u a lot.. n i hope we can give USZ anotha chance.. i mean hope u n ur gurl work out great n tht u b happy wit her buht u knoe im still gunna b thinkin bout u all the time n bout usz.. so yea.. thisz how i b feelin lately n it comin from the heart... jus knoe dayshawn tht ima alwaysz luv u even if we aint 2gehtha n im alwaysz gunna b here 4 u..... i luv u

bahk then...

wen i think bout u i imagine ur face,

think bout the memoriesz tht u jus cnt take

i want the pain to go away so quick buht i knoe itsz

gunna take jus a lil bit moe

i jus feel lyk runnin away jus 2 geht may

problemsz out of mah way

how can 1 single person break meh down,

i neva thought it would happen now

all we tlk bout is wuht happened 2day

buht we neva even knoe if there will b anotha day

i luv it wen u say "i luv u baby gurl"

buht i also knoe tht ur lovin anotha gurl

we been through a lot i cnt even believe tht

were still 2gehtha n thatsz jus wuht i need

even though i geht hurt some of the time

i cnt let u go cuz i need u

by mah side

u decided 2 4geht her buht i c in ur eyesz

tht ur also really hurtin deep inside

i wanna take ur pain so u will b glad

i feel lyk itsz all mah fault 4 makin u sad

i jus want u 2 b happy

moe than meh cuz i kno once i c u smile,

tht would set meh free

i knoe u wanna take the pain buht u knoe

wuht baby, tht aint ur game

we tlk bout our memoriesz tht happened

long ago buht i hope we got

moe 2 go..

[[wrote thisz a long time ago..]]

Pain..

Pain

i wish thisz pain would go away, im tired of cryin
every day hopin that it will someday..
sometimesz i feel lyk runnin away buht i knoe
that aint mah type of game...

it all started out wen i wasz 5 or 6, i didnt knoe mah lyf
wasz such a bitch. i think bout the memoriesz i been through,
i dnt even knoe where to begin to. i didnt think mah lyf wasz
gunna b lyk thisz, thisz isz jus a plain twist that makesz meh piss
i lost mah bro wen i wasz young as fuck i think thatsz y i feel so
unluved

[[chorus]]
i want the pain to go away, to start mah day i knoe that
aint gunna happen cuz that jus a phase. i wish the pain
would stop buht then i mite lose mah spot, mah spot to
live lyf whether it sucksz or not


i aint got nobody to look up to, or anyone to relie to. i wanna b
strong bout thisz buht sometimesz it makesz meh weak lyk a
lil puppy on the street. i still got dem tearsz rollin down mah face,
even though it been yearsz since momma been away.
i b down on mah kneesz cryin n prayin to god askin him y all thisz
satrted from the start


[[chorus]]
i want the pain to go away, to start mah day i knoe that
aint gunna happen cuz that jus a phase. i wish the pain
would stop buht then i mite lose mah spot, mah spot to
live lyf whether it sucksz or not


itsz hard to live lyf through all thisz bullshit, i cnt give up
or then i aint got no lyf bitch. i think bout dem familesz
that can realate to meh buht i knoe there moe who got it worse
den meh. all i can say isz keep ur head up high cuz soon we'll
b the onesz lookin down from the sky


[[chorus]]
i want the pain to go away, to start mah day i knoe that
aint gunna happen cuz that jus a phase. i wish the pain
would stop buht then i mite lose mah spot, mah spot to
live lyf whether it sucksz or not..

iloveyou

Thingsz i drew b4..

it wasz ova..

afta..

now..

iloveyou..

alwaysz n 4eva

4eva

thisz song rite here isz dedicated 2 some1 real special thisz 4 u baby jus 2 let u knoe how much i luv u gurl come here
[chorusz]have i eva told u lady that u mean the world 2 meh n u knoe im gonna luv u 4eva, 4eva u n meh have i eva told u baby that ur alwaysz on mah mind n u knoe im gonna luv u 4eva til the end of time.
u say u luv meh pretty lady n your down 4 meh n so i, i made thisz promise gurl 2 alwaysz b ur everythin turn down the lightsz the music up n put ur handsz in mine n let meh show u gurl these feelingsz that i hold inside neva wanna b without u gurl cuz your mah pretty lady i lose mah mind every time ur kissesz drive meh crazy, so tell meh baby, do u feel 4 meh wuht i feel 4 u? do u luv meh gurl lyk i luv u para siempre [[which meansz 4 eva]] meh n u
[chorusz]have i eva told u lady that u mean the world 2 meh n u knoe im gonna luv u 4eva, 4eva u n meh have I eva told u baby that ur alwaysz on mah mind n u knoe im gonna luv u 4eva til the end of time.
hey pretty gurl u knoe i luv u cnt stop thinkin bout u alwaysz n 4eva u n i will b 2gehtha. the luv i have 4 u til i die i will treasure every minute every hour cnt stop thinkin of u mah daysz wnt b complete without a smile from u hold mah hand understand ur the light of mah lyf, ur mah gurl, mah friend thatsz y i made u mah wife
[chorusz]have i eva told u lady that u mean the world 2 meh n u knoe im gonna luv u 4eva, 4eva u n meh have i eva told u baby that ur alwaysz on mah mind n u knoe im gonna luv u 4eva til the end of time.
now if ive neva said it then imma say it now in front of the whole world baby gurl imma say it proud, im still in luv u, even through the thingsz we’ve been through i can still smile, i can still say mah heart belongsz 2 only u now i breathe n live 4 u n mah kidsz we've been through the rain the luv n the pain, lil sunshine in the end how the fairy talesz end happily eva afta 4eva i will b ur man
[chorusz]have i eva told u lady that u mean the world 2 meh n u knoe im gonna luv u 4eva, 4eva u n meh have i eva told u baby that ur alwaysz on mah mind n u knoe im gonna luv u 4eva til the end of time.

iloveyou..

i alwaysz wanted 2 sing thisz 2 u..

Forever ~ NB Ridaz

1225o7

Theresz a guy who hasz earned a spot in mah heart eva since 1225o7. he wasz some1 who i dreamed bout in mah fantasy world. some1 who would b there wit me eva since the beginning of our lyf together, wen i would b cryin, or mad, worried, or even scared. he would b there 4 me wen i wasz havin family problemsz or wen i jus needed some1 2 tlk 2. he alwaysz promised me he wasz gunna b here 4 me. buht wuht bout now?? wen i need him the most he aint here. did he break hisz promise? or isz it that once after he breaksz up wit me the promise doesnt count. y is it wen u have some1 they will say they'll alwaysz b there 4 u buht wen somethin goesz wrong n u both decide 2 stay friendsz he broke the promise cuz now he wnt alwaysz b here 2 give u a hug or a warm "iluvyou" i think bout all the memoriesz we lived 2gether n somethin itsz weird on how we still manage 2 fight through it. i feel like im in luv wit him.... wait i am in luv wit him... i mean wit mah otha breakupsz i neva cried every single nite over that 1 guy. buht wit thisz speical guy i cry everynite. we both wonder if it would geht betta soon or if there wasz 2 b otha chance, if it would turn out gud. i made mah mistake in the past on breakin that same promise 2 him n i learned from it. i wish i neva did hurt him. buht now i kno how he felt.we all make mistakesz in lyf n u hope u neva did....